Happy Anniversary
By Kamal
Sunavala
It's my anniversary. This month I have completed one year of my life in Prague.
Am I Czech yet? No. Do I
speak more than basic Czech words yet? No. Do I think like
Czech people? No. Do I want to leave the Czechs? Nope.
What is it about this country that has a
hold on a person, who fancies himself to be a tourist who
has found some
work? When I think of the places I still haven't seen or
the people I still haven't spoken to or the battles I still
haven't engaged myself in, I fear that my time will run
out and it will all be left undone. I have grown to love
this city in unconscious ways and conscious ones. I love
that dogs are kings and smokers are not publicly flogged,
I love that parks are plentiful and old people are given
seats on the trams. I love the buildings and I could go
on forever about the value of their histories. But this
article isn't about what I love and what I hate. It's simply
about survival.
It's about facing up to life in Prague. Which
God knows can be a challenge especially when one is a foreigner.
Especially when one is dealing with people all the time,
as I do, in my job. But what amazes me is that all this
can reveal a wealth of resilience and enjoyment of what
Prague is. What it will wonderfully always be and what
it will annoyingly always remain. Life here can be such
an inexplicable contradiction in terms that it sometimes
boggles the mind. A lawyer's
mind goes absolutely still when he cannot process the
craziness
and the irrationality. So I suspend my disbelief and
embrace it for what it is.
In the one year that I have been here, the
one important thing I have learnt is, change cannot and
should not be
foisted upon the burdened shoulders of this city. What
it must be is a smooth complementary cocktail. A dash of
hot change, a generous pouring of understanding about why
things are the way they are and then an enticing cherry
of what things can be like if there is some change. That's
the cocktail I use at work and that's the one that bars
are able to sell the most. My analogy may seem a little
strange but I assure you that it works.
The other thing that life in Prague has brought
to attention is that people are threatened easily. They
can perceive
you as an enemy before you say hello and after you have
actually said hello they are fairly much convinced of it.
Now this may seem a little harsh but try seeing it from
a foreigner's point of view. We don't know and will never
know what drives the Czech person on. We can only guess.
As a result we are unable to understand how to truly appeal
to his sensibilities. We only go by what would appeal to
us and sure enough they find that odd or unacceptable.
This is a cross I have learnt to bear. It pokes its head
out from under the rug when I take a step and trips me
up. It keeps me humble and reminds me that knowledge can
be so relative.
This is a weekend of taking stock. A weekend
of trying to understand why I love Prague and why I love
what I am
doing here. Why all my experiences have been so enlightening
and interesting and why I choose to remain here for another
year. I don't really know the answers to all the questions.
I do know that I shall stay on. I do know that I want to.
I do know that as time goes by this feeling can either
grow or go away. It's a wait and watch game. Meanwhile,
happy anniversary to me.
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